I dont know whats wrong. I really dont. So far all the puzzles that ive put together, this one seems impossible to finish. Its like a blank page where you dont know which puzzle piece fits the right place. Im blank, totally. Somehow i have a feeling its gonna be bad news. I just hope its not the worst thats all. Guess i'll just have to wait, with hope, for us.

Can anybody help me im outta plans
guess I left my world in somebodys hands
I dont like to hurt one but everyone gets weak
someone to rely on thats what I really need
now here we stay its all that were worth
Ive been thru the pain and been dragged thru the dirt
whatever they tell you were bigger than words
Ive been where your standing I know how it hurts
let this be a song now and this be a day
and we stand together well be okay
because were survivors were making it work
expecting the best when they hope for the worst

one love - this is the way we found
one love - even though they'll let you down
one love - nobodys perfect now
one love - dont let that hold u down
one love - lets stick together now
one love - we got to stand our ground
one love - its easy to believe in
one love - believe in u and me
onee loveeeeeeeee

now I could try and fix this all by myself
but I know itd turn out better if u help
no one likes to hurt but, but everyone gets weak
someone to rely on thats what everybody needs
now here we stay its all that were worth
Ive been thru the pain and been dragged thru the dirt
whatever they tell you were bigger than words
Ive been where your standing I know how it hurts
let this be a song now and this be our day
and we stand together well be okay
because where survivors were making it work
expecting the best when they hope for the worst

one love - this is the way we found
one love - even though they'll let you down
one love -nobodys perfect now
one love -dont let that hold u down
one love - lets stick together now
one love -we got to stand our ground
one love - its easy to believe in
one love - believe in u and me
onee loveeeeeeeee, its oneee loveeee,

im here to tell you its one love, oh
one loveeeee, said its one loveeee
sing with meee one loveee,
one love to be oh thats all we need
one love.

Got this photo online and i thought it was cute not to mention kinda true. Where do you stand?

I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night and the first thing that came to mind was you. Checked my phone hoping for something but there was just a picture of you staring back at me. I browse through your photos just so that i could sleep back. Just that this time there was a slight pain at the left side of my chest. I thought about it and well i guess it was a mixture of dissapointment and sadness. After rushing home from work all i wanted was a late night talk with you. To hear your voice to let go some of my misses for you. But i guess some things are way more important. And best of all, you promised. You freakin promised.

I feel that this song means alot to me thus I shall put it up for the girl that i truely love.

My irritating girl, this is for you.

Saying "I love you"

Is not the words I want to hear from you

It's not that I want you

Not to say, but if you only knew how easy

It would be to show me how you feel

More than words

Is all you have to do to make it real

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two?

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away?

Then you couldn't make things new

Just by saying "I love you"

More than words

Now I've tried to talk to you

And make you understand

All you have to do is close your eyes

And just reach out your hands

And touch me

Hold me close, don't ever let me go

More than words

Is all I ever needed you to show

Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me

'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two?

More than words to show you feel

That your love for me is real

What would you say if I took those words away?

Then you couldn't make things new

just by saying "I love you"

Now i really miss you :/

Okay. Today was the so called last day i could meet up with love as she have to study for her papers next week and we cant meet up till after her exams. :/ Picked her up from school and went to J8 to catch a movie. Decided between My name is khan or 14 blades and after a longgggg discussion we just decided on...



As i expect it to be very touching, it dissapoints. I mean it is touching at some point but not to the extent of crying. I find it a more entertaining movie rather then a sad one. Maybe to some its a sad movie, depends on the individual really.

Basiclly the movie is showing the truth of what is happening in the real world. Of why innocent people are harmed just because of a bunch of mindless ass people going around bombing places. Its a very sad story but khan's role of being a retard(he really is) makes it funny. Eventhough he's a retard, he is a genius in fixing and remembering. How i wish i have his memory sia. Fuhh everything ace!

Well overall i give the show an 8/10 for a good storyline and also not forgetting the good acting. I hate the movie theater though. Freakin uncomfortable and the seat is too low. You cant rest your head very well without slouching. Maybe im too tall lah. *ehem* heheh. Cinema(gv J8) rating 5/10.

Send that irritating girl home since she must 'study'. Right now she assumes that shes studying but i bet she'll doze off soon. Confirm one. And after she reads this she will chat/text me saying she really did study but well, god knows the truth. Am i right my dear? :P

Ahh shit i gotta go to school tomorow to show my lecturer some stuffs. Also working at 5 till closing again. zzz god can i have money without working? pleaseee? :/

Just so you know, your smell beats any perfume out there.

Yey! Saturday was a great great day! Woke up at 9 and head to tampines to get love's surprise then fetch her and we head to the zoo straight away. The shows were really cute as the animals interact with their trainers and such but the weather was freakin hot and the drinks were way expensive. So the both of us were dehydrated but non the less we still had fun! ^^ Got ben and jerry's after that before heading to marina square to catch this,

The show was an okay show but i feel that the storyline could have been better. Still their special effects were good and them bringing up a greek mythology into a movie was kinda cool. A 6.5/10 for me.

Im glad you loved the gift but i still feel i could have done something extra. Its okay we still have the whole future infront of us and i assure you there will be much more surprises and gifts in store for you. I want to relive that shocking face of yours again soon. I cant wait to meet up with you this coming friday for our study session which i doubt we'll study, but still no harm trying right? I love you irritating one. :)

When you rest your head on my shoulders and hug me by the hand, id grow weak and i just wanna sit there with you forever.

Went to visit farhan today. Glad he's better now. His mouth can open already and he's recovering. Went to his house, played a little CS then went to the coffee shop to chill and guess what happened? We were just talking then i noticed a guy sitting at the other table. He kept on looking at one of us. I thought he was one of the NEA guys or some shit since he's wearing formal clothes. Then after awhile, he just turned at us and said, 'hey guys no offence or anything but i find you guys cool after overhearing you guys talk about bikes and all. Im just saying you guys are cool and all. Btw my name is eric' *shakes hand with asy and ashraf*. We were like wtf this guy. Suddenly talk to us like that. Then we ignored him and just continue talking. Sree still can reply ' ofcourse, we are cool by nature'. hahah. A funny incident at a coffee shop. Not to mention the person that took our order was a he but sounded like a she. lol.

Damn tmrw presentation and also submission for MOS website. I havent even started! damn it! okay i shall do it now. tskk.

I feel that i dont know everything.

MOS project done and heres the movie that we came up with! Its about a boy(sam) who joined Temasek poly and makes a new friend(haikal) who teaches him how to hack. He then gets addicted and...go watch yourself to find out. ^^

Isamuddin-Main char (Tan Hah Teck)
Haikal-Friend (Bon Tot)
Daniel-Father(What Lee Teck )
Stessen-Policeman(Sargent Ah Choo)

Yesterday i met up with that irritating girl and guess what i found? This,

See which name is the biggest beside the heart. And the best part is, my name isnt even in it! Humph. Now she owes my 9 kisses and counting. Dont argue with me girl, you know you cant win ^^ oh and did i say she punched me in the face too? Wahhh i tell you she should owe me like 90 kisses instead of 9. Also i found out that irritating girl is also a kinky girl. Hehs wanted to put up what she tweet but give chance luh. Later someone merajuk v hard to pujuk right right? Remember Famous Amos? :P

I just can't wait to meet you later.

I just realized that when im angry or irritated, id speed when i ride. Sometimes not even realizing it, id hit 150. And when im sad, id just ride really slow and my mind tend to wander off. I've learnt a few things when riding a bike.

1. Check blind spots are the most important rule in riding. Accidents occur mainly due to faulty bikes or failure to check blind spots, NOT cause of speeding.

2. Speed only when your at an expressway since there wont be any cars suddenly 'popping' out from the side road. Oh and also check for TP when speeding. You wont wanna get fine and demerits.

3. Wear a jacket during rainy seasons or if your going out till late at night. Unless you have 10 kg of fats stored in your body, you wont wanna shiver all the way home. Its really tiring. Rain drops may be nice but at 100km/h, they become little needles constantly poking you. Painful indeed.

4. Never tailgate. Especially behind a taxi. They just wanna earn the extra cash by putting you in an accident.

5. If a car is tailgating you when your riding slow, fuck it. Ride slower. That'll piss em off. Not unless your in the first lane of the expressway, then its best you get your slow ass bike to the second lane.

6. If a mat revs his bike besides you at a traffic light, act like your gonna take up that challenge then just observe him accelerate so fast that he forgot he just wasted more of his fuel. If your feeling devilish, just take him on.

7.Slow down at a traffic light no matter what. You never know when the traffic light is gonna change to amber and you gotta jam break just so that you wont go over the line. Dont burn off your brake pad for nothing.

8.Never push your bike too far unless you want to taste the asphalt and damage your bike or even kill yourself.

9. Dont take corners like your on a race track. Nobody's gonna see and say 'wow' after you made a perfect turn but laugh if you fall down. Also you never know if theres is something on the bend. Even a small branch can flick up your front wheel. It happened to me once.

10. Enjoy riding. Its way better then public transport.

Yeah so thats mainly what ive learnt through experience. I hope this would help to any fellow riders out there. To ride safe at all times. I cant deny once in awhile you have that feeling in you that just wanna burn some rubber. The faster you go the better it feels. When that happens, think about your loved ones. It'll help.

recent pic from rahman bday surprise.

Whole group with rahman's friends.

Anderson jambut tepi! Too bad farhan couldnt make it or it'll be a full set.

Lets make us last forever :)

Last friday or should i say saturday morning was a very bad day. Met up to disscuss about our trip at 8pm till 2am. Went home and slept straight after that. The next morning i woke up, i saw a miss call from farhan so i called him back. I was shocked when his mum suddenly picked up the phone when i was talking to him halfway to say that he met an accident last night. I asked which hospital, which ward and what bed and straight away got ready and go off. His mum were beside him when i reached and we talked about what happen or how it happened. Sree came sooner and then ashraf and asy. Thankfully his hands, legs,head and body were'nt hurt that bad. Had some bruises and a broken finger. The damage were mostly done on his face. More then 20 stiches were done. Pictures.

This dicky still can say, 'who's the man?'. hahah they will never change. Well im glad he was discharge from TTSH on sat evening. Take care uh beb. Kau nak kite teman kau gi appointment call je. Aku make sure aku free utk turon.

That night had a BBQ birthday party for rahman at pasir ris. Finally turned 20 on sunday. Miss playing soccer with this guy. Always looking out for us no matter what. Wanted to post the bday pics but still havent recive them.

In order; sree, ali, rahman.

Once again Happy 20th birthday uh rahman. Wish you all the best in life and ride safely. Made our way home at 4 and reach home at 5 after sending them back. A really tired day indeed.

Work today was unexpectedly fun. Manager was being sarcastic to me cause she ask me to extend but i couldnt due to assignments. All the way sia she sarcastic. grr luckily she my manager, if not i disturb back alraedy. Oh im getting good at it already. Gonna move on to making expresso soon. Pressureeeee but with colleagues like this, it'll be a blast. :D

Touch her again and its the last thing you do.

Yesterday was the first of febuary which officially marks our one month! One whole month with that irritating girl whom i love so much. Had a busy day going to dad's work place then to ubi before meeting love at tamp to pick her up. Head to marina square to catch tooth fairy before having dinner at chomp chomp. Had a really wonderful time with you dear. Its been 1 month were together and time seems to go past so fast. Feels like it was just yesterday when i asked you the magical question that lead to us. I cant wait to spend the future with you and i just wanna say thank you for everything. You bring me love and joy like nobody could. I just hope i can return the favour and make you the happiest girl that ever lived.

I love you umyra.

I couldnt get a proper photo of you but i guess this will do :)

From the irritating kid that loves you, Haikal.