what a boring day.i slept at 4am yest.or is it today? err..nevermind.and woke up at 11 near to 12.the first thing i did was head for the com.did what was neccessary and played Football Manager 8 till now.i dont even knw what the time is! my brain is extra lagging.i can forget what to say or do! this is what holiday does to me.i just returned from the shop.i bought 2 of these!

ate both of them all by myself.im in love with it! yummm..aite.now wanna go and eat proper food.take care ppl! byebye!

shyt.school is starting.. :/

RESULTS FOR N LEVEL.

i got 8 points! arghhhhhh!
english=2
combine humans=5
mathematics=4
science=3
design & technology=3
malay=4
malay oral=merit

wth mann..
i was dissapointed with my malay.i expected to get 3.haiz.I NEED A MALAY TUTOR!
anyways im surprised i got 3 for science.combine humans is a gone case.the only subject tt met my expectations was english.well i gotta buck up for next year.O levels man!! i must study like mad.yeahh easier said then done.okayy..i gtg now.i'll update again soon.seeya!

holidays holidays holidays.its great to have holidays.but only when you have plans.if not,u'll sit at home and rot.during the holidays,people want to go to school.during school days,people want to have holidays.this is so confusing.which one do you want? haizz..kids nowadays. xD

anyways,ya'll think vespa is a useless,ugly,slow,whatever you say scooter.
YOUR WRONG!
there are diff types of vespa.
1.the apek one.
2.the modern one.
3.the cacat one.
4.the vintage one.

and im gonna get the vintage one! let me show you a pic of it to give you a clearer view of how my future vespa is gonna look like.here are some of the candidates.






AND MY ALL TIME FAV!


i just love it's design!

so now all of you know what i'll be riding at the end of next year!

heyy people! any nice movies ya know? please intro it to me as i wanna buck up my ipod.thanks! :D

i'll be honest and say that i miss you.

ive been sleeping so late this days.staring at the com at least 6 hours a day.my eyes are getting blury but i dont wanna wear specs.i'll look like a bloody nerd.and lets just say i dont suit looking like one.hahs.anyways i've been having lots of fun going out.now all my money is gone.need to work for more.thats the thing,you work for a whole day,and spend the money in less then a minute.i really need to stop spending and start saving.vespa comes first.i really cant wait till i own a vespa.im gonna ride it late at night when im stressed up.just ride non stop till my mind clears out.feeling the wind blowing at my face.listening to the silent night.what a wonderful feeling.just me,my vespa and the night.no worries,no problems,no stress.vespa vespa here i come..

i can forget something in less then 5 mins but why cant i forget about all that?
i really cant stand having this feeling in me.sometimes i feel like ripping my heart out.or erasing that particular memory.if only that was possible i wouldnt be like this.you might see me smiling,you might see me having a blast but when my mind drifts away,thats when i recall every single memory of the past.i gotta tell myself to stop being this way.it'll destroy me.fcuk it and forget about everything.i wanna live life to the fullest no matter what life throw at me..

im thinkin of breaking the rules.what do u think?

As time past by,

i look up at the clear blue sky..

with memories of the past,flashing through my eyes..

a shooting star emerge way up high,

i wish i wish that you are mine..

but thinking back of the past,

i'd have some doubt that we could'nt last..

but every once in a while,

a glimpse of hope would be enough,

to cheer me up,and make me smile..

it eases my heart to see you now,

so happy and lovely like the day we both pledge to be,

a whole but now,we're both free..

so here i write this poem for you,

one final say from me to you...

once our eyes locked memories flow through my brain like a knife through butter. its hard to recall every good and bad memories in a sec.its just too much for me to handle.pictures i still keep in my phone have i view every night since that day.my heart just feels heavy once again.as thought it wants something.its getting heavier and heavier as the days past.i've tried everything but nothing seems to heal it.every heartbeat is so deep that every single part of my body feels it.my mood has been unpredictable.sometimes i feel that i want to do something about it but the anger in me just keeps me away.i dont know what i should do right now and im just waiting for something to happen.waiting..hoping..wishing...


i had a dream that day,the dream that i wish would happened in reality but i doubt it.well at least i get to feel her lips one last time...

im at work all alone waiting for my mum to come.im so sleepy/bored/tired/hungry.i just cant wait for 12pm. yeyy! today im working halve day.after tt im going out! meeting my friends to shoppp! best best besttt! we're gonna have a great time! :D

hmmm..what should WE do on monday....

QUOTE OF THE DAY.

Never hope to get what you want, do something about it..

life has been great these days. although im drained due to work and constant outings,its been fairly good.my mood has improved greatly due to support from friends. thanks to all of you! i really appreciate your help. anyways everything is going according to plan.financially i mean.i'll get ard 3K by end of next year and vespa,here i come! :D

anyone wanna go out tomorow? im dont want to rot at home. :/

to ashraf:good luck bro in getting the girl you love.we're all rooting for the both of you to be together. what a happy couple you two will be :)

These past few days i didnt get to blog due to my busy schedule.i've been going out everyday and i really mean every single day.from morning till night.i really need a break! haizz but im doing all this just for my lovely vespa.it better be worth it!

-on saturday me and my friends decided to play pool at amk.i was suppose to meet them at 1 but mum invited me to eat lunch so i told them i would come at ard 2.but at ard 1.30 i was otw to amk hub.when i called them they were still at home.great.that was when ONEay came to the rescue! :) we walked all over amk hub till theres nowhere to walk to! this girl is very very very hard headed! degil lahh in other words! i asked her to eat but she refused.even when i offered to treat her.haiyoo.and
i nearly sat beside and old fat beggar! whoaa u should see his body when he opened his shirt! the girls will melt sehh! hahaha! with tt kind of meat,im sure he wont starve to death. xD and please,i didnt knw beggars had money to buy ciggarettes -.-

since we got nothing else to do we went to the arcade and played some basketball games.whyy didnt u tell me earlier u didnt like to play arcade?? hmm?? okayy nvm after tt we didnt know what to do and this ONEay suggested we sat inside the lift.for what reason i dont knw.so we did.up and down we just sat there.haha there was once when we both sat down and the life door opened,the guy was shocked to see us! hahahah! funn luhh! tt was the first time someone gave me tt kind of idea to sit inside the lift.hahaa! thanks ONEay! :D and she even did it with me! girls dont normally do all this kinds of stupid stuff.they normally 'preserve' their image so that they wont make a fool out of themselves.u're the first girl who did all tt with me! yeyy! :D

after tt i send her to the mrt and went to meet my friends.we went to play pool and then home.now im broke! i need cash!! badly! well schedules been hectic and i hadnt had time to rest.but ohh well,its better then not doing anything at home.

i cant wait for this saturday! :D

these past few days had been great yet tiring.not to mention depressing,angry,and all the negetive feelings lumped into one.i just hope these feelings go away.i wanna be happy again.i wanna smile like i mean it and laugh till my cheeks hurt.im really trying my best to cheer myself up.friends are helping all they can.thanks a million. you know who you are. :) i just wanna start the next year with a problem free mind.

wishes arent always granted.but hopes keep you alive..

my overseas post coming right up..

<3

I feel so depressed lately. Thoughts of the past flashing through my mind. Now i understand why people are willing to die for their loved ones. Love controls you. It makes you go crazy;like a drug. Without it you will suffer in silence. Im in need for a cure. A cure for love sick. I just wanna love someone right now. And i want it back just the way i gave it. I want to feel the hug that makes you feel as though ur on cloud 9,the kiss that makes you ignore everything around you and the love that everyone desires. Well im thinking of someone right now. Its great to see her smile again. And i'll present a million thanks to the guy who made it happen. Well,i gotta move on now. The past is to forget, the present is to be enjoyed and the future is to be awaited....

its been long since i updated due to my busy schedule.ceyy like buissnessman sehh.hahah.well a friend of mine reminded me to update so here i am typing.

these past few days has been tiring yet fun.everyday i have been going out.not even a day to rest.last sunday i went out with ashraf and sree to tekka! woo its my first time going there.we went there because thiviya(ashrafs future girl) had a performance there.the performance was at 7.15 so before that we went shopping.sree and i wanted to get a new belt so we went to peninsula.sree got his but i didnt.so we went to bugis and there i got my belt.batman belt! great! we made our way to tekka and it was crowded! we couldnt even see the performance and had to climb a wall and stand on top of it to see.even then we didnt get to see it clearly.after that we went to eat.i ate cheese nan.if tts the correct spelling tt is.its like prata just without the oil.its nice! and the great thing is the mutton is more expensive then the nan! hahah! after dinner we went straight home.

monday i had a class chalet.one day one night.it was damnn funn! its been long since i played soccer.we played with some chinese guys who also had class chalet.and also some mat reps who had cacat tattoos! hahah! at first we were a little rusty but then we got out rythm and we were unbeaten! hehs.wasnt much of a challenge really. xD
we ton and didnt sleep throughout the night.we rode bicycle,and sat down beside the beach.chit chat about our lives and just spend time together.we really had a great day.when all of us reached home,we straight reach for our beds.knock out sehh! but i really missed my bed.what a shiok feeling sleeping! and it was raining somore.the weather was sooo cooling.wahh besst! when i woke up,my whole body was aching and i really mean whole body.legs,abs,triceps etc.its been long since i exercised liked that! everyday sit in front of the com only.my eyesight is getting worst.arghh i dont wanna wear specs.i just dont fit!

today i worked and it was alright.im still sleepy due to the lack of sleep.well my mum is pestering me to pack my bag for tomorow.we're going to port DICKson.haha did i scold a bad word?? well im staying there till sunday.so i'll be unreachable till then.im definitly gonna get myself a shoe.i dont wanna waste my time going there and coming back without anything.
take care people! im tired of typing so much. i'll be back! :D

These past few days had been tiring. I've started working since last tuesday. Office job doing filing and data entry.its an easy job just that you need alot of concentration. The people there were very easy going and funny! They like to joke around and just have fun while doing their work. They made work enjoyable. Well my work starts at 8a.m and ends at 5p.m. i'll go online at 12++ so if u wanna tell me anything thats the time to go online. I just dont feel like going to work on monday. I wanna rest! haizz. All because im saving up to get a vespa! I'm freaking crazyy over it! and nothings gonna stop me from getting what i want!

Today had been great! Went jalan raya with my sec friends. Met ashraf at amk mrt at 12.15 then proceed to yishun mrt.when we reach there none of them were there. We were the first one to reach. So we decided to go to go to northpoint to walk ard. Ashraf wanted to see some disk so i accompany him. After that met rauf,rumizah,hazimah,mamun and shafiq at yishun interchange.btw,me and ashraf saw a hip hop guy! his style of clothing was out of the world!(sacarstic) i think even a poser has better image.hahah! only me and ashraf know what he did that made us laugh and condemn him more.hahaha!
we made our way to khairi's house first and met nadiah there.shikin came later on. halveway rauf need to go home as he need to go to his grandmothers house or something.sorry ye rauf! happy chinese new year! xD we ate canadian pizza there while watching resident evil extinction.after that we went to wani's house and to cikgu mas,hazimah's,ashraf's,nadiah's then lastly mine.we ended the day at around 11. what a great day! everyone was like kutok-ing each other! hahahah! funn lahh sehh. i dont know why but im really hyped up! guess im problem free for now. so i'll enjoy life till the fullest! i wont let anything upset me now. i'll enjoy as much as i can now,then i'll focus on my studies next year.next year is a very important year.O level.shyyt.i must really buck up! well i just cant wait for the next jalan raya to teacher's house/jalan raya with my pri sch friends/and our class chalet! woohooo!! im definitly hyped up now!

Girl...It's easy to love me now.
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...It's easy to love me now.
Would you love me if I was down and out?
Would you still have love for me?
Girl...

If I feel off tomorrow would you still love me?
If I didn't smell so good would you still hug me?
If I got locked up and sentenced to a quarter century,Could I count on you to be there to support me mentally?
If I went back to a hoopty from a Benz, would you poof and disappear likesome of my friends?
If I was hit and I was hurt would you be by my side?
If it was time to put in work would you be down to ride?
I'd get out and peel a nigga cap and chill and drive.
I'm asking questions to find out how you feel inside.
If I ain't rap 'cause I flipped burgers at Burger Kingwould you be ashamed to tell your friends you feelin' me?
And in bed if I used to my tongue, would you like that?
If I wrote you a love letter would you write back?
Now we can have a lil' drink you know a nightcap.
And we could go do what you like, I know you like that.

THE MOVIE MARATHON.

i was so ready for the movie marathon yest.i went out of the house at 6.50 and reached amk mrt at ard 7.10. ashraf was there and he was agitated just because we're late.i came late also because i knw sree would be late.or else im always on time.ashraf even wanted to run when sree came.crazzy ah?! i dont wanna sweat and watch a movie marathon.eeiii so uncomfortable.

actually do u knw why ashraf was agitated?? it is because he wanted to meet diviya(the girl he love) and she said must come on time lahh,cannot wear jeans and all so we 'must' listen or else ashraf would be angry.hahah.he'll scold me if he reads this.

back to the story,when we reach there,the AVT was full sehh! we didnt expect so many people.so we booked our seat at the back and waited.it was so noisy sehh.i was so damn high that i was disturbin anyone and anything that amuses me.even teacher i disturb! haha! funn sehh.

the first movie starts but everyone were still chitt chatting.so we cant hear very well.but who cares,the movie suck anyway.okayy,heres the listing of the 7 movies they show.error in my last post.sorry!

1.daddy daycare

2.alone

3.goal 2
4.maid

5.secret

6.night of the museum

7.mean girls

daddy daycare-it was boring lahh.we cant hear tt well cause everyones talking.the show wasnt even funny.

alone-alone was the bomb! it was the best show of the night! everytime the ghost came out we shouted like girls! halve way thru the show we decided to shout with our manly voice! funny sehh! imagine guys shouting in horror with their voice.haha kecohh! but seriously it made us awake.

goal 2-goal 2 was quite boring cause there was alot of talking.so we went to the stall they set up which cn buy stuffs and ate.sree why is the mee on the floor? x)

maid-me and sree watched the show already so we didnt want to watch it anymore.we sat out side and chit-chatt about alot of stuff.and we talked alottt.

secret-secret was some jay-chow movie so all the non malays didnt watch.we went to the other room to talk talk.they were showing pursuit of happiness in the other room and ashraf wanted to watch it but me and sree purposely let him watch alone cause diviya was there.

the convo between me,sree and diviya.

sree-diviya,u boring ah?

diviya-*nodd

sree-do u want some entertainment?

diviya-pauses and think for a while and *nodd

sree-u knw my fren ashraf? he's in the other room.he's very entertaining lahh.u can sit beside him for some entertainment.

me-ya serious go sit beside him go go*whispering

diviya-smile2

sree-u knw he made us came to this movie marathon just because he wanna meet u.

diviya-huh? really? *smile2

me-ya! when we said we didnt want to go he was angry and scolded us.he really wants us to ome cause if we didnt go,he would go and then he wouldnt get to meet u.

diviya-*smile2 wider

me-u go sit beside him lahh.he very shy wanna sit beside u.he's waiting for the moment.

diviya-what moment?

me-ermm..the right moment?

diviya-ohh okayy.then whos gonna take care of the stall?
me&sree-dont worry we can take care of it.we swear to god/mother/father/gradfather/gradmother that we wont steal.

diviya-can i trust u all nt?

me&sree-ya dont worry we swear we wont steal ready right?

diviya-ohh okayy.*went to go sit beside ashraf.
me&sree-power lahh! mission accomplish! hahah!

okayy that was how it went but ashraf didnt make the move.he just sat there like a paralyzed idiot! argghh we were scolding him after the show ends.haiyoo ashraf.just go for her lahh what are u waiting for?? wanna shy shy.haiyoo.

night of the museum-at first i thought tt show was crappy but then it end up to be a nice show! me and sree left ashraf to sit with diviya and we sat on the front row seat.we were engrossed in the show where else 80% of the ppl in the AVT were sleeping! and we didnt sleep throughout the movie marathon knw!

mean girls-we didnt want to watch it cause its a crappy show.so we went home earlier.we had a drink in the nearby coffeeshop then we went home.

when i reach home,i bathed and straight went to bed.i was so tired that i slept frm 8am-2pm.haha what a fun day.here are the pics we got.we didnt have much as we cant snap pics in the AVT due to the darkness.

toilet 'grooming' ourselfs! haha.

mat flat sleeping on the floor.

awaiting for a certain someone to talk to sree.

SLEEP.thats what i did most of the time today.all because of the movie marathon im going tonight.it'll be held in my school AVT(dont ask me whats the meaning of it cause i also dont knw) at 7.30p.m till 7.30a.m.they're gonna show 12 movies if im not wrong and i really hope the movies are to my likings. if not im just gonna disturb,disturb and disturb ppl.hahah! its gonna be a blast! im gonna meet my friends at 6 to eat first then to the MM. and i just got news that we cant wear jeans! we can only wear track pants. like WTF!? who the hell wear track pants this days? so were gonna go against the rules like we always do and just wear jeans.im gonna bring all the tit bits i can find and were gonna munch like nobodys buisness.hahs. im gonna blog again tomorow and tell u ppl what movies they showed. okayy its nearly 5 and i better get ready.

well i wanna go out to get a few things listed in my mind.
1. shirt(s)
2.boxers
3.knee guard
4.belt
so if anyone wanna go out,gimme a call! :D

HARI RAYA has been okayy.i was so enthu in it until i got sick on the first day of raya.shyyt.i was down with a bad flu and brought tissue everywhere i went. dh pakai baju kurong lawar2 then bwk tissue,tk style sehh.anyways i thought sleeping would heal it but it still was there.what a waste.i missed alot just because i slept.u get what i meant by miss alot.anyways,i didnt get much on the first day.less then $50.
2nd day was better,the flu i mean.and we had lots of funn. the ladies were so kecoh when taking pic.mak oii! pasar pon kalah sehh! memekak btol.but it was a blast ahh.and the best thing tt happened to me was,when we went to a neneks hse,not my nenek uhh but dont knw whos,just follow only.after i salam her,waited for ka'ching,but she didnt give! waaaa.. and the best part is,she gave to all my ABANG sedare! even the ones who work ready! do i look old? shyyt i have to buy a face mask.makes me look fairer and have more radiant skinn.hahah! hmm its definitly because of the height cause im one of the tallest amongst my cousins.im growing older sehh.haiz nvm.like i said,raya is not for the money,but to visit family members and to bond with ur family and cousins.so yepp.its not such a big deal.we had a great laugh anyways.haha.

well now im at home waiting for someone to visit my hse cause im dead bored.I WILL GIVE MY FULLEST ATTENTION TO ANYONE I KNOW WHO COMES TO MY HOUSE.im so bored sehh at home.hmm at least today im going out to a friends open house.good! im outta here! well if anyone wants to come my house do give a call in advance! okayy i'll stop here.SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI ONCE AGAIN! :))

A post would be incomplete without pics! :D

white=holyyy...hahaha!

couples love. :))

theres more but all of them are in my cousins camera! :(

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM!

today was even worst then yesterday! shit i woke up at 5,wanted to sahor but there was no food.what a waste of effort.then slept for 45min but didnt actually slept lh.was lying down msging.got ready at 5.45 and left at 6.15.i was suppose to meet my cousin at tiong baru at 7.30.but when i called him at 7,he just woke up.great.so i waited for him at tiong baru for 1hr.luckily i gt my handy ipod to accompany me.watched scary movie 2.crapp sehh haha.he reached at 8 and we made our way there.they gave us the briefing and we started work at 9++.at first it was alright,at ard 11 it started to get boring."shitt.when is this gonna endd".that sentence kept running through my blank brain. then we started to take pics.haha crapp sehh.

roger that! haha!

nak step bace suratkhabar konon! x)

well we then were seperated and need to each guard our post.we then use the walkie talkie they gave us to communicate.haha funn sehh! we talked crap thru the walkie talkie and hoped nobodys listening.then both of us were too tired to even speak.this is when the boring part starts.all the while we we're halve awake.staring at the lorries and cars passing by.the other post u need to take down all the workers particulars.their names are out of this world sehh! especially the bangla workers.example balarajathan gopal(names are not real to hide victims identities).yea but some are even longer then that! woww i dont knw how to write in that small space sehh.haha.kk fast forward.>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

we ended our shirts at 6,which was suppose to be at 8.but i asked my dad if we cn go at 6 and he said yess.so off we go to town to breakfast there and shopp! we broke fast at long john and after that we went to topman.my cuzzie got himself 2 shirts! i got my eye on a shirt but it was $54! wahh one days sallary gone just like tt.i thought about it and decided not to get it.then i wanted to buy boxers.2 for $20.but the design i wanted doesnt have my size.XS and L.obviously mine wasnt tt small nor tt big.so i decided nt to get anything.save the money for some other time.after shopping we sat at mac to relax awhile then went home by bus at ard 9.30.reach hm at ard 10.15.okayy2 mumm nagging ready.need to change my bed sheets and lay out the carpets.take care everyone! happy house cleaning!

HARI RAYA:1 MORE DAY!!!!

damn..what a day today.woke up at around 9 and played com.then dad asked me if i can work today.full day.then i said nope cause im going out at 3.then he said like tt u work till 3 then u go meet your friend.i thought bout it and said yess cause i need the money.so off we go on a bike!! woohooo! its been so long since i rode a bike! jakon rabakk sehh.serious.i even took a video! haha! then reach there at ard 12.so i followed the instructions and sat at the table.i need to take down every lorries license plate.all the way im so damn bored sehh.i even snapped photos.the most stupidest thing that happen today was a short,unecessary conversation between me and an auntie.well here it goes,

Auntie:excuse me.
HKL:yes?
Auntie:how to go to the 14th floor?
HKL:----.---- u can take the lift.
Auntie:ohh okayy thank you.
HKL:ur welcome.

how stupid can these ppl be?? damn i should have said, u can take the stairs.haha! okayy then after that i was suppose to meet marianni for her bday treat but she cant make it cause she must take care of daniel.so i didnt wanna go home as u all knw the reason to it.so i asked a few of my friends and Zee ended up free.so we met at J8 to watch the movie 'Balls Of Furry'.the movie was great!! if was funny sehh! u guys should watch it before they dont show it anymore. but the movie still cannot beat Simpsons! hahah! after the movie Zee wanted to go home so here i am.at home awaiting buka. well tomorow im gonna work again.and its the whole day! walauehh..im seriously gonna die out of boredness.i hope time flies tomorow which i think time will crawl and the day ends.i cant wait to get the money and buy stuffs! okayy i better stop here.dh nak buka.selamat berbuka puasa! :D


Security Guard..-.-

Weekends has been a bore. i didnt go out or do anything.i wanted to exercise but the com was luring me to use it and yess,i fel for it. most of the time i used the com. sitting and staring at the big shiny glass screen. damn im getting dumber and dumber if this continues. at last tomorow im going out to study D&T with friends. im getting restless sitting at home.i hope i learn something tomorow.realy need to perform for D&T.well i cant sleep eventhough im listening to songs.luckily theres someone to chat with me.hahs! sheesh kebab btol! malam2 buta maseh blum tido.dah byebye!

countdown till Hari Raya:5 more days!

YEYY!! bought myself a watch today! ive always wanted a watch since june but didnt knw what design/brand to buy.when i find a nice one its too expensive.haizz.then yesterday i went out with my friends to pacific plaza cause ashraf want to fix his watch.then i saw this watch.it was damn simple.i dont knw why but i just like it! i asked the price and it was $25 buck.great! just ard my budget.but i didnt have the money tt time.so i went today with a friend of mine and bought it! after tt we walk ard at far east.then we decided to go to vivo! straight bus from town lah.at vivo we walked everywhere.went to the rooftop to play water with the kids.haha.we then break fast at banquet and bought jellybeans for the journey home.

HERES THE WATCH!

(what do u guys think bout it?)

SUNDAY was a day to forget.i wanted to go out but a few things stood in my way.
1:NO MONEY
2:NOBODY TO GO OUT WITH
3:DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO IF I GO OUT.
4:EXAMS STARTING TOMOROW AND I NEED TO STUDY
5:I NEED TO REST AS I HAVE BEEN OUT FOR 4 CONSECUTIVE DAYS
6:MUM IS IN A BAD MOOD AND SHES DEFINITLY GONNA SCOLD ME IF I GO OUT.(i wouldnt listen anyways)
hmm i guess thats it.well at least i had a quick napp in the afternoon.im really trying to study now but to no avail.
PROBLEM SUM:how to study math??
ANS:open book+memorise-distractions=a tired mind.
at least thats my answer.you cant study math alone,you need a friends/tutor or at least someone who knows math.damn i think i rather study chem cause im just wasting my time.i on the tv to see the charity show and not many ppl donated! haha.i think most of them didnt watch it as exams are tomorow.what a wrong timing.okayy im gonna continue studying! good luck in your exams ppl! sleep early,wake up and have a fresh ready-to-go mind! good nites!

why am i starting to feel this way? why is there a strange feeling emerging deep from me? am i moving on? or am i just remembering the past? what will happen in the future? will i be happy or sad? will i find the right one?
millions of questions running through my mind...

WOW

a few great things had happen this past few days and ive been breaking fast outside for 3 straight days! i got a new phone! wooo!! MODEL:W880i(picture)

DAMN THIS PHONE IS SLIM!

weee! basically i choose this phone due to its slimness.9.4mm thin.even my wallet is thicker.i took hours to transfer stuffs from my previous memory card to the new phone.but all the hardwork pays off.now its been with me everywhere i go.new couple! hahah.

TODAY HAS BEEN ONE OF THE DAYS THAT I WONT FORGET!

the outing that we set on friday 28 sept 2007.IT WAS FCUKING FABULICIOSLY GREAT! haha what a word.but seriously,we camwhore till my phone died! wthh! or else theres more pics! haizz but we really enjoyed ourselfs.we had a delicious meal which everyone was satisfied with! each person needs to fork out $16.cheaper and better then seoul garden($28)!! wooo!! after finish eating everyone had a boncet stomach.all of us were complaining we were full.worth the money! we then walked ard and view the clubs there.alot of ang moh sehh.then we all decided to go to orchard to walk ard.eventhough my phone died we didnt stop snapping.i used anyones phone that has a camera and snap snap snap! we went to toys-r-us to have fun.all of us were high lah seyy.and i mean REALLY HIGH.ashraf go so high that he lost his polo-t that he just bought! $18 gone down the drain.after that we made our way back.i reach home at 11! today was really great.look at the pics we snapped!

CLARK QUEY

FUYOO FIERCE AH. XD

TEAM PHOTO!(sree mamun and rauf came late)

CHEERS!

RAUF AND AMIR-"SEDAPP"

STING RAY!

INDULGING!

AT THE MRT WAITING FOR THE ONES LEFT BEHIND.

THERES MORE PICS TO OFFER BUT DONT TELL ME TO PUT ALL OF THEM RIGHT? :D

SCHOOL

today has been a very fun day indeed.school was damn tough.the whole day i suffered due to PE.we played soccer and floorball during PE.woww it was fun at first cause its been long since we played games during PE.i was so engrossed that i forgot that i was fasting! shit.after PE my mouth were as dry as the sahara desert.all of us cant stand the thirst.i just cant focus on my studies after that.the thirst and hunger just made me wanna sleep.

AFTER SCHOOL

after school we went opposite and some of my friends broke fast! i wont name them to keep their identities.but yepp.that wasnt a problem for me but they drank in front of me! just to make me jealous.i was chanting 'sabar haikal sabar' in my heart.all the way i walked with farhan as we both were strong willed.iman kuat katekan.haha! we waited for the rest at amk hub.time passed by then they still wasnt there.it was 1.40 and then they emerged by the other side.we got to know that they walked around amk hub. -.- because of them me and farhan didnt get to go prayers.tskk.i thought of going home but they insisted that we round amk hub.so at last i did.we walked and all of us were high.haha kecohh.then we went up to the 4th floor and played a card game using poker card.funn lahh! its like theres only a certain number of cards.same numbers i mean.the cards were shuffled and given out seperatly.we need to pass one card around until one person gets all four cards of the same number.then when he shouts GAME!,the rest of the players quickly puts their hands in the middle.the winner will get to whack their hands.the players with their hands in the middle can dodge depending on their quick reflexes and the quickness of the whacker.i won once,and when i wanted to slap their hands,all of them dodge.i end up whacking the flood! ouchh!! haha damnn.my whole hand were red! we all had a great laugh until the security guard had to chase us away.haiyaa.then we search for another place and continue our game.it was really a blast! 3.30 we make a move home.

HOME

at home i went through the usual thing,online tv.then i slept till buka.after buka my family and my cousins went to geylang.we reach there around 9+ and woww.it was flooded with people.my dad dropped us off first and he went off to find a parking spot.so here we go bulldozing throught the crowd.we were quite pissed with our mums cause they stop for the littlest things! we search and search for our baju kurong and found them.i got mine already! i aint gonna tell you what colour it is! :p haha.and yes i bought a chapal.so expect me to wear a chapal during raya! me and my cousins were fighting over dengdeng! wooo! nice mann! i craved for more each time.after that we went to eat somewhere which i obviously dont know the name of the place.the food was nice but i was too full to finish it.so we tapau.now im at my cousins house.overnight here till tomorow and were gonna watch movie! The Invasion.i dont know if its a good show but i'll just watch it.damn its 4 in the morning and i havent sleep.eyebags growing sehh.okayy.better go now.here are some pics that we took!

RAMLY BURGER!(sorry no pic of dengdeng.its was eaten before i could snap!)

AT THE BAJU KURONG PLACE! (look behind us)

ME AND MY KAKAK SEDARE! (eating place)

FAMILY INDULGING!(the bandung wasnt nice):

BORING!
today has been so dull.its like nothing happened.wake up,go school come home.all the way i was hungryy.fasting really drains the energy out of you.well im sitting here thinking of something to do,well,blog to the rescue! this is the main reason why i create a blog.

TOPIC OF TODAY:LOVE
define Love.its an unexplained feeling found deep in your heart.the feeling of affection towards a certain person.the feeling that makes you ignore everything else and just stare at the person you Love.Love is a strong word.it makes people do stupid things.everyone wants to be Love,either by family,friends or partners.some people are willing to give up anything for the person he/she Loves.but sometimes people are mistaken.they dont know if they are deeply in Love.or is it just lust or a short crush.these are 3 different things.
CRUSH is when you like somebody for a short period of time.some people have a crush on someone who they didnt even know or maybe just met.but when you get to know the person,you think that he/she is'nt the right partner for you.then your feelings for the person will wear off.this might hurt the other party as you would probably dump them sooner or later.
LUST is a when you want something and get it through their partner eventhought they dont have any feelings for them.for example guys will just want to fulfil their sexual desire.girls will use the guy's money to get the things they want clothes,shoes etc.alot of people felt cheated after their partner so called uses them to get what they want.sometimes they get so sad/hurt/depressed if they really love the person but their partner just uses them to fulfil their needs.people like this are really undisciplined.they cant control themself and rely others to give it to them.they will just destroy other peoples heart or lives.especially for girls.they make the mistakes of losing their virginity.NEVER i repeat NEVER give away your virginity to any guy no matter how much he says that he loves you or what he has given to you.you can only lose your virginity to your husband.guys will always respect your decision if he truly loves you and he will support whatever you do.girls also should not rely on guys to get what they want.guys will buy them stuffs once in a while depending on his budget. NOTE:not all guys and girls are like this.some of them are really serious about their relationship.
get to know the person really really well before you go to the next level and be in a relationship.NEVER LIE and definitly NEVER CHEAT ur partner and give them your trust.listen to each other and comunicate to solve problems.be understanding and take turns giving in.ALWAYS BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER through thick and thin.thats what couples do.its normal to make mistakes and FORGIVE each other depend on what they do.and never rush things in a relationship.take it slow.
try not to find love cause LOVE WILL FIND YOU.

well im talking like im some kind of doctor love.hahah! its up to you to belive my words.and now you know how bored i am.for me im just enjoying life to the fullest right now and i really hope everyones does that too.stop fighting and start loving! PEACE TO THE WORLD!

YESTERDAY was the day we just sit and look at our classmates eat.and that happened during breakfast period! wahh tempting sehh..they had garlic bread with soup.i dont know what soup exactly cause i didnt want to go near or even see the food.so we just sat there and chit chat.we thought of 'tapau-ing' the food.but teacher nvr let.haiyaa.after that lessons were as usual.dull and boring.after school went straight home and then to the gym.i know most of you will say"puasa puasa pon nak gi gym".and yes i must still go.if you stop your strength will reduce and you wont be able to carry heavy weight like you used to.i met ashraf there and then we exercised.at first it was okay.we werent so thirsty or hungry.but nearly 45mins into the exercise our mouth were dry.we were tired quite easily as we obviously didnt have much energy.i went out of the gym at 6.30 and reach home at ard 6.55.after buka i went to terawih and then home.

TODAY
theres not much to say besides me waking up for sahor for the first time! i ate bread with nutella and milk.nicee..but little did i know that i would have a stomach ache in school! the aching started during recess.i thought it would go away sooner or later but it didnt.we end school later then usual due to mr angs remmedial.we were suppose to have 2 hours of physics but it was cut short to 1 hour beacuse mr ang had to go to the hall for lower sec EFL.thank god! pheww..i reach home early and what else,online! even with a stomach ache i could go online eh.haiyoo.i chatted with mum about the phone that i wanted to buy.she said not to buy first and survey.so i did and guess what,i decided that i didnt want the phone! another phone caught my eye and i immediatly fell in love with it.love at first sight do exist people! haha.so i told her about it and the first thing she ask was how much is it? i didnt know the price but i told her its quite new.so it must be quite expensive.i really hope the price is low and i would really beg my parents for this phone.im really gonna pray hard to have it! NOTE: mum i promise to be good if u let me buy this phone! (just for a while) ;p .well im gonna check out the price tonight when i go to terawih and pray hard its cheap.im willing to give up all my money to buy this phone.damn im in lovee..i aint gonna tell you what model it is cause u might snatch her away from me! no no no! haha! until i get the phone,nobody knows....

today has been short.why i say that is because i woke up at 1! woahh..i really had a great sleep sehh.i took the opportunity to study when my brain was fresh.so history was my option besides chem.i just didnt knw how to study chem lah.i'll end up wasting time.my parents ask me to follow them buka at my cousins place but i didnt want to.i want to study and watch simpsons! at first they dissallow but end up giving in.so i waited for 7 oclock.but when i on the tv,simpsons wasnt there.some stupid war show.WTH!! i was so dissapointed sehh.i was so ready to watch simpsons while eating and laugh till my stomach hurts.haiz.i just hope next week simpsons will be on.i really dont feel like going to school tomorow.its gonna be a hungry day.and we cant eat our breakfast meal! i just hope the teachers wont catch my hair and ask me to cut.cause i'll be wasting my money.goodnight everyone! have a good sleep!

LESSON LEARNT
now i know that in order to learn,i need to have a good rest.or else my brain cant concentrate.from today i'll try to get at least 8 hrs of sleep! wahh thats a hard task.everyday i need to sleep at 10.impossible sehh! but due to N levels i'll try.

YESTERDAY

yesterday was utterly boring.rotting at home as per ususal.tired to study in the afternoon but my brain just cant focus.halve way through i just stopped and played com.at ard 5 my stomach went grouchy.it was growling and moving as if there is a beast caged in there wanting to be released.i tried to endure but end up losing therefore went straight for my darling bed.i slept and woke up at 6.55.just in time for buka.i ate laksa which wasnt my fav food but due to my hunger,any food is nice.i drank 3 glasses of soya bean! yummyy! love that drink.after buka rest my stomach awhile but didnt go for terawih.this time i tried to study.chemistry.isotope=same number of proton but diff number or neutron.acidic oxides=non-metallic except carbon monoxide.basic oxides=metallic oxides except zinc oxide,lead oxide,aluminium oxide.okayy these are the things i remember.well im gonna study history today.HITLER! haha..i'll post again tonight as im going to my cousins house.better have something to talk about.i dont want to go! im gonna leave my com here all alone without anyone to accompany it.arghh! i want to stay at home lah.haizz we'll just see what will happen.

THE SILENT MIDNIGHT

im hyper tonight and the reason was because maybe i ate chocolate just now.woooo! power sehh.its so peaceful besides my brothers snoring! i love it at night.the sound of the wind blowing,the fan rattling.i just love the night.woww im sure tomorows gonna be a short day as i would definitly wake up at ard noon.i dont know if i want to go out tomorow cause its definitly gonna be a tiring day.well,i dont have anything more to say.sleeping soon! my grannys gonna have a hard time waking me up sehh.pitty her uhh.sorry nek! okayy..i better go now,till tomorow! ASTALAVISTA BEBEH!

AWAKE

here i am wide awake at 1am typing while eating porridge.i really dont know how im gonna stay awake in class tomorow.most probably im gonna be halve dead.i shouldnt have slept in the afternoon just now.but too bad i cant stand the hunger.so i decided to sleep maximum duration 1 hr.but i end up sleeping from 4-7pm.3 hrs.great.i woke up because my friend called.if she didnt call me i think i wouldnt have woken up in time to break fast.thanks again! i tried my best to sleep just now,listen to slow songs.love song any songs that are smoothing to the ear but to no avail.alot of things are running through my mind.the past,present and the future.sometimes i feel like quitting.stopping time and falling into a deep sleep.something like hibernation to clear my mind.im just so tired of things happening around me.i try my best to snap out of this confusion but it just comes back again.to all that tries to cheer me up,thanks a bunch.i really apprechiate everything that u've done.you know who you are. :) starting from now,i aint gonna be sad/angry/dissapointed bla bla bla.i've done some thinking and come to a conclusion.that i would live to this motto.live life to the fullest,and fuck anyone who tries to stop me.im sorry for the vulgarities but the feeling of anger inside me just needs to be release.i aint gonna care less about what people think of me or what i am doing.if they dont like it then fuck off.i going back to sleep to refresh my memory and try to delete away unwanted ones.i just hope i wake up in time to sahor.

END

1ST DAY OF FASTING

today had been the day where im late for the first time in the whole year.my dad woke me up in the morning but i didnt feel like it.so he just ask me to drink a glass of plain water.i drank it and immediatly slept back.little did i know that my useless handphone was gong gong and the alarm didnt work.my bro woke me up at 6.45am and i really didnt feel like going to school.eventhough i know i was late,i still took my time to bath and do the usual stuff that i did in the morning.theres no use rushing and still be late,when u can relax and also be late right? so thats what i choose to do.the bus ride to school was fun.not even 1 single andersonian was in it.its like u need to come back to school for remmedials during the holiday.when i reach school the old auntie ask me to write my name down and how many times i was late.when i wrote 1st time she didnt belive! she said she will check my record to see if im lying or not.please lahh.today is my first day of fasting month! how can i break fast due to a small lie? haiyoo..school was per normal only that during recess i stayed in class and hear music.now onwards im not looking forward to recess but the end of school.after school we waited for rahuman and joel then went straight home.throughout the whole day i didnt have the mood and was tired.i dragged my feet most of the time.i decided to post now as tonight,im gonna break fast and go prayers.after that its too late to post.im just trying to stay away from food or even think of food for the mean time.
*gong gong-crazy

MOOD

i think my mood swings back.i thought that i was gonna be okayy but i was wrong.sometimes i feel confused,sad,angry all mixed into one.i just hate being this way.i just need something or someone to make my day or even week.for now im just relying on Simpsons this sunday to cheer me up.they have never fail to make me laugh.

FASTING MONTH

fasting month is gonna be hard.its different now that we are schooling.unlike last time,fasting month is during the holidays.so can sleep in the afternoon,wake up and immediatly eat.schools gonna be tough and its hard to concentrate with an empty stomach.not to mention the temptation when coming down to recess and seeing everyone eating is harsh! but i think most of the malay students won't come down for recess.just sit in class hearing music or sleep.for those who dont know,fasting month is a month where muslims all around the world dont eat from 5 in the morning to 7 at night.they do this so that they know what hunger means.how poor people all around the world feels everyday of their lifes.so we would not waste food,donate to the needy and be a better person.fasting also cleans the stomach as we wont eat anything for a period of time.our stomach also gets to relax.these are the reasons why we fast.for some may think that its stupid.but behind every action theres a reason.TO ALL MUSLIMS,SELAMAT BERPUASA! (jangan puasa yok yok!)

school was as per normal.lesson was boring uhh.especially because we had 2 physics lesson and 1 chemistry lesson.back to back! i was damn tired and my brain wasnt 'on' but mr ang made jokes and was funny.his face is so round sehh! and his perot boncet! hahah! but he's nice when he teach us.after school i had a problem with our soccer training.the sec 1 had a match with st gabriel.they were big! i thought they were sec 4 or 5 but they were sec 1 and 2! wow what did they eat sehh?? well we're alright with that but then they told us their match starts at 3.30! the same time as ours! we wanted to 'halau' them and ask them to play outside of school but they had a teacher in charge.i thought about it and got a solution.they played one halve then we play our match.but we dont know if they would let.then the teacher in charge said that the opponent brought 2 teams and we could challenge their sec 2 team.without hesitation,we accepted their offer.we MUST WIN as if we didnt,we can forget about playing soccer again.we can't lose to sec 2! reputation gone sehh! so the sec 1's played their match first with me being the referee.the sun was scorching hot and i was sun tanning.now im dark! becoming a nigga! hahah! kk back to the story.the sec 1 put on a great fight and at halve time they were down 3-2.not a bad score.its our turn and all or us were in our best form.we draw first blood and the score was 1-0.not long after we scored again! and again! so now the score was 3-0.they retaliate and scored a goal but we didnt just sit down with that score.so we scored again!at halve time,the scored was 4-1.so the sec 1's continued 2nd halve with ashraf being the referee.he was high and gave a player a yellow card! haha! gila lah he.he even shouted at the players! hahah! ashraf ashraf.the sec 1 put up a great fight and they won the match with a score 5-4.congrats to them! so its our turn.we had a few players substituted and the game begins! I scored a goal to increase the score to 5-1.but they pushed on and got 2 long range goals.our keeper's fault ahh! a shot like that also cannot catch.haiyoo..see lah never come for training! but we held on to the lead and scored more goals! in the end,the final score was 8-3! great match! i scored 3 goals! yeyy!! we didnt have a fight and shook hands.after that we went home as a team.what a great day! we came for training but got a match instead.bessttt! here i am typing with my leg injured.my toe nail broke! wahh my socks were red sehh.bloodyyy..haha.i think im sleeping early today.tiredd sehh.and my chest and biceps ache!! yeyy! i think now my legs are going to ache too.i love the feeling of an aching muscle! shiokk! haha.
*halau-get rid *shiokk-a great sensation *gila-crazy

PUASA

im going to eat till my stomach burst tomorow! thursday is fasting month and we cant get too eat.boohoo..im just waiting for hari raya! get moneyy!! yeyy!! best best! To all,selamat berpuasa and visit my house during hari raya! and i'll visit urs too!

BACK TO SCHOOL!

it was extra hard to wake up today.as usual bath bla bla bla and went to school.1st period was quite entertaining.Mr yong replace mdm zaleha and with his lame antics he made the lesson quite fun.i cant belive that i said history was fun! haiyoo..we didnt have PE as it was raining.then the hall was occupied with the exam thingyy.okayy the rest of the day i dont need to say.BORING! went home and then to gym.wahh the gym was damn crowded.some teacher brought his basketball team into the gym.like the whole team inside the gym sehh! gilerrr.so we stayed in there for 2 hrs due to long queue.trained chest and biceps.push to the limit sehh! i hope my body aches tomorow.if not im not satisfied! after tt accompany ashraf go cut his hair as his hair was 'funny'? hahah! his hair like nerdd! haha! after that went straight home and online until now.i want to eat but no food!! arghh!!! milk H(k)L also dont have.how to eat cereal sehh?? haiyoo..im just waiting for tomorows soccer training.its our last.so i hope it will be an entertaining one.okayy..end of day! byebye!

MOOD

yesterday my mood was better.i was happy and high due to simpsons! simpsons really helped cheer me up.both my idols never fail me! i've cleared out my mind and thought things out.i hope my mood stays this way.mood swings SUCK!
to mum,
sorry i talked in that tone to you.i was'nt in a good mood.im sorry!

I wake up,look at my hp and it was 7.45am.great.i really didnt feel like playing the soccer match.its like my bed was stuck to my body.inch by inch i drag myself to the stinkin toilet.somebody didnt flush! i suspected that it was my brothers doing.i hold my breath and flushed but the smell was still there so i just bathed quickly and get the hell out of there.i changed my clothes and packed my stuff.its was already 8.18am.so i called farhan and he was otw.we met at the bus stop and took 269 to yck sec.
when we reach there,there were afew pakciks changing so we changed and warm up.the opposition was a chinese team.they look fit but who cares! we had exactly 11 players as some of them cant make it.
kickoff and the game started slow.we didnt play that well and at halve time and we were down 2-0.sedih sehh.the sun slowly started to rise and it was scorching hot.the second halve prove to be more agressive and at a faster pace.i had a few chances but missed it.haiz.adapting myself to the new boot.both teams played dirty and one of their players had a dispute over ours.the referee cooled things down by warning the both of them but even after that hard tackles were made.we scored one goal but it was ruled as offside.minutes after that they scored.now our goal is to just score one goal and sure enough we did.final score 4-1.after changing we decided to play pool but changed of plans due to shortage of money.so we went straight to KFC.damn tired sehh.after eating we went home.
when i reach home,i went online but halveway through i decided to rest.my body was too tired.slept for a few hrs and here i am.i thought of posting at night but i was too bored!

ive been quite moody these days and i dont know why.maybe its because of the exam pressure and some confusion.adapting to my new life maybe? i dont know.i just hope that i get my mood back soon.

birth of my blog!

okayy..this is my first post.because of a long and boring day i decided to make a blog so here it is! at first i had a doubts weather to make a blog or not.due to careful consideration and some help,i decided to make one.after creating bla bla bla,i was stuck.i didnt know how to change the blog skin or why it cant be changed.so in came hazlif aruzan! i heed her advice but still i didnt knw how.so i gave her my password and she did it for me within 15min or so.wonderwoman lah she.haha! thanks again ya! so here i am typing my first post..

TODAY
today was a dragg.woke up at ard 8am.wanted to sleep back but couldnt.went online while watch tv the whole day.mum ask me to go to some kenduri but i didnt want to.no mood uhh.i wanted to run but changed my mind due to my aching muscle.im just waiting for tomorow's soccer match at 9am.haizz.why does it have to be in the morning?! but luckily the venue is near or i wouldnt want to come at all.hmm thats all for today.till then,byebye!