Its easy to see me laughing and smiling all the time. Behind that smile, behind that happiness are constant worries about my life. Just as i thought things were getting better, i get hit right back to the ground. Im too tired to fight back though im not giving up. Where the wind blows, i'll just follow. Whats the use of planning your life but nothing goes your way? Im too tired physically and mentally to do anything. I dont know how to react to the upcoming events. Im afraid bad things will happen and the best part is, i dont even know what to do to make it right.